rain come down

it's been pouring rain the last few days with thunderstorms late last night & im loving it! ive been staying warm in my toes socks & heaping cups of hot chocolate & tea. im thankful for this wonderful cozy weather!

twenties

i am...
in my twenties.
what i am not is stuck, even though i think i am.
my twenties has allowed me to carve out the life ive wanted to live.
it was daunting at first when i took that first step at age 18.
it was scary & liberating & rewarding all at the same time.
its still scary but freeing.
i am my own boss.

i remember...
the nights where i crawled up into a ball in bed crying from my first real heart break.
ramen days in exchange for shopping trips.
clubbing nights with girls, car barring, pre-drinking, & getting home at 5(am) only to be awake 3 hours later for work.
the nursing pre-requisite classes & the horrid commutes.
the nursing program & the sleepless nights & the horrid commutes.
more drinking, partying, quality time with loved ones.
release.

sowing real connections & letting go of what wasnt detrimental to my growth.
constantly learning how to deal with situations & people outside of my comfort zone.
what im not willing to tolerate & what deserves my patience.
what makes me feel good.
what hurts me.
it all equals to the constant addition of wisdom acquired through life lessons.

even though at times i want to be somewhere other than my twenties, i know one day i will miss all of this. ill be nostalgic for the days where sometimes none of it made sense. ill think back on those car drives & late sleepless nights wondering, worrying, & feeling the thrills of being in my twenties all at once.

success through failure

failure is something that can bring so much value into our lives, if only, we can learn from it & use it to make wiser decisions next time around. failure is one of life's toughest lessons but it can bring the greatest rewards.

frenchie friday

i spotted this cutie outside of a coffee shop & immediately asked the owners if i could pet him. theirs just something about flat nosed brachycephalic breeds thats got me head over heels in love with them. lolo, lola, tito's, & tita's have passed down their strong affinity for flat nosed dogs onto the grandchildren. pugs & bulldogs are the type of breeds that rule on our family.

in the nude

when i can find a nude nail lacquer that is as dreamy to apply as it looks, i know i've found a winner. im finding that most of my essie nude polishes far outweigh my zoyas in terms of application. cho & avery from zoya go on streaky and the wait time for each coat to dry is a bit longer, while my essie nudes apply like a dream.

i <3 SF

instant happiness washes over me when crossing the bridge on my way to my favorite city. san francisco never fails to rejuvenate & refresh my spirits. theirs so much beauty, culture, & great places to eat in SF. ill always be a san franciscan girl at heart.

on work

the quiet in my car was solace away from beeping iv's machines, phones ringing, & constant alarm of the ekg monitor. today was just one of those days where everything seemed to happen all at once including two code blue's resulting in the death of a patient while a few doors down their was an accidental fall of another patient. regardless of how rough & hectic a shift gets im blessed to be in a line of work that's preparing me for when something better comes along.